I’m very competitive– every time I put my mind into something, I always want to be #1, no matter what it is.
An example. I started playing guitar in my first year of high school, and I’m a senior right now. I thought I was doing pretty alright (I can play jazz, classical, electric guitar), then a day or two ago, I jammed with a couple of sophomores, and their lead guitarist wiped the floor with me with his licks. I just left then and there, making up some stupid excuse so that I could get out of there.
Felt bad after that– I know, I overreacted. But really, I don’t like it when someone gets ahead of me in something. I even quit Classical guitar because my cousin got ahead of me after doing it for six months.
I was pondering on it a couple of hours ago, and I figured that I have this idea that when you’ve been doing something longer than somebody else, you should be better than him/her. A ‘seniority’ complex, I guess.
Can anyone help me? Give me some advice so that I don’t go off feeling incompetent whenever someone gets ahead? I really don’t like feeling like a loser when it comes to things like this.