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That Competitive Streak

That Competitive Streak

I’m very competitive– every time I put my mind into something, I always want to be #1, no matter what it is.

An example. I started playing guitar in my first year of high school, and I’m a senior right now. I thought I was doing pretty alright (I can play jazz, classical, electric guitar), then a day or two ago, I jammed with a couple of sophomores, and their lead guitarist wiped the floor with me with his licks. I just left then and there, making up some stupid excuse so that I could get out of there.

Felt bad after that– I know, I overreacted. But really, I don’t like it when someone gets ahead of me in something. I even quit Classical guitar because my cousin got ahead of me after doing it for six months.

I was pondering on it a couple of hours ago, and I figured that I have this idea that when you’ve been doing something longer than somebody else, you should be better than him/her. A ‘seniority’ complex, I guess.

Can anyone help me? Give me some advice so that I don’t go off feeling incompetent whenever someone gets ahead? I really don’t like feeling like a loser when it comes to things like this.

April 23, 2013Comments are DisabledRead More
Shy But Competitive

Shy But Competitive

Let me just say, I’m pretty shy when it comes to meeting new people, especially when I find the person attractive. Its my absolute worst quality and no matter how hard I try I usually disappoint myself.

So last friday I met someone while at a party. I had seen her around before and we have some mutual friends, but we never talked. My first mistake was to tell her I knew her because I know her ex. She looked pretty disgusted when I said his name. Great.

Later on she came up and told me she was going to be my partner for beer pong. We played a couple game and then I ended up bringing her and her friend home since they were drinking and I don’t drink.

The next night I was looking for someone to go get food with late at night. She was first to respond. I eventually gave her my number but by the time she sent me a text I was almost asleep. Sunday we were texting each other a little and Monday I took her out to dinner. Wednesday we went out again and then back to her place for a bit.

Like I said I’m shy so I didn’t really open up too much. I started to get more comfortable wednesday, but I wasn’t being myself. I just hope she hasn’t already gotten bored. I know it hasn’t even been a week yet, but I do a good job at screwing things up from the beginning. We made plans this morning to hang out Monday night so I’m hoping things go a little better and I can just be myself. I don’t know the point of all this. I guess I need some advice. Its also been over 7 years since I’ve really gone on a date. I just got out of a long relationship about 8 months ago.

April 15, 2013Comments are DisabledRead More